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I am not sure what to name this post. I have so much on my mind and so little room up there to hold it all in. I think I need to vent.

So as you all may know, I really do not like my job anymore. I know there are many people out there that do not have jobs and I should be thankful to be employed but right now I cant be thankful. My boss and his wife are killing me. I don't know how she can sleep at night. Here is my latest drama with her. Monday morning I walk in the the kitchen which is also the home to the postage machine and 2 printers. I notice a huge stack of papers on the printer. Mine was on top but I thought I would be nice and pass them out. So I flipped through and noticed they were for the wifey. I asked her where she wanted them, she said can you make sure they all belong to me first. I said sure. Flipped through again, pulled out a few that did not belong to her and put them on her chair as she was in a meeting and i went about my business.

About 1/2 hour later, she sits down by my desk and says I need to talk to you and she has a stack of print outs (a lot bigger then I had put there) and tells me I need to pay more attention to detail. "Excuse me?" She says "I asked you to take out what did not belong to me and here I have a bunch that are not mine." "You really need to pay more attention to what you do, you are the bookkeeper and you have to be on top of things because there is so much detail and precision in your job and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Once again, I did not speak my mind. In my younger days I would have told her exactly what I thought and not even missed a beat. What is happening to me?

My hubby told me to let it roll off my back because she probably gets off making other people mad. He told me to kill her with kindness. Oh, I want to kill her alright but not with kindness.

Then mr boss walks in today with something high up his ass and decides I am a good target to shit on. He kept asking me questions with a real shitty tone and I kept giving him answers with a real happy and cheerful response. I think that was pissing him off.

The thing that almost threw me over the edge today is this, we get paid tomorrow so I have to process payroll today. I get all the commission sheets done at 9:00 a.m. and give a copy to boss and to wifey to review. Boss gets his back to me right away. I only work until 2:30 so payroll needs to be done and transmitted by 2:00 just in case I run into trouble. At 1:20 I still do not have wifeys stuff back. I go to her desk, not there, I ask the receptionist & she says she went on a client visit. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME! So I call her and she says she will be right back. Gets back and makes it my fault they are not done. I should have told her I put them on her desk. HELLO! YOU WERE SITTING RIGHT THERE AND SAW ME PUT THE BRIGHT GREEN FOLDER ON YOUR DESK!

So here it is 2:10 and I was just starting to process the payroll. I got it done and transmitted at 2:30 exactly. My kids get out of school at 2:45, It takes me 17 minutes to get home on a good day. Today's road conditions are anything but good.

I don't mind working late if need be and with a little notice because I pick up my kids from school and today it was -14 with the wind and who am I suppose to call at the last minute to pickup my kids? My kids are more important to me then some fucking job.

Bitter, party of one, your table is ready. I really dread going to work tomorrow.